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[13 Mar 2004|01:42am] oh he was throwing razors tonight & im not manipulative, but i clearly have a way with him. somehow i catch the razors between my teeth and with a drop in my tone, i soothe him into melt. 1 comment|post comment

but where is he now? [23 Nov 2003|11:19pm] i once knew a boy who made me hold my breath for minutes each word buttered my face pink my lungs tried to flutter open for one lick of air thoughts escaped and tripped along, nervous and directionless until he received it. with his response my heart would send my mouth on another dare his voice, a home an answer to my whispered shygirl prayers. post comment

[30 Jun 2003|09:57pm] me: "I think they just want me to do something that will make me happy." him: " I want to make you happy, after you get over the nerves of course! XXXXX O" siiiiggghhh. 4 comments|post comment

[05 Jun 2003|01:48pm] for a moment i truly believed everything was over, and i nearly gave in. i am exhausted, and i felt a strong urge to call it quits. this point is almost a balancing act you fall towards it and you can either stay at that point and let it pierce through you, or you can somehow roll over it with only a few physical marks, and another chapter in your heart and mind. when i found myself suddenly on the other side, i needed to talk to someone . connect myself with a relationship that i hold dear, another signal of "yes you are HERE. and you are alive." my mind went through a short list of people who i wanted to reach out to. this may come as a surprise, but you were one of those people. or, perhaps that isn't in the least bit surprising to you. post comment

[31 May 2003|09:44pm] help me get us to the point. your silence is eroding the purest parts of my heart. /// i've gotta talk to all your girls i need a second or fifth serving of a much needed, but most unwanted warning. post comment

[29 May 2003|05:31pm] i love you in ways i can't even explain post comment

[25 May 2003|10:11pm] a thunderstorm outside as we offered ourselves, and our bodies to each other both taking and receiving. post comment

[21 May 2003|07:55pm] don't send me your overtures no, i don't need an introduction to his why's and what's of --hey, i'm gonna call it love when her milkstained skin brings out the pink yeah, i said when she takes it out better take cover honey, it ain't her offer. post comment

[17 May 2003|12:02am] i love you and i carry this with me, like a weight of guilt. 2 comments|post comment

my first and second lovers [12 May 2003|08:27pm] she was more delicate with her touch. he has a tendency to devour. post comment

3 / 3 / 2003 [12 May 2003|06:54pm] Secret thought police go back through words and uncomfortable silence in the breaks letters never sent will one day appear on your door step I walked in circles for so long heel to toe heel to toe have you changed the invitation ? wait too long & catch me if you can try and catch me if you can. post comment

[11 May 2003|08:19pm] I don't often think of zipping down your fly curling your glance around my smallest finger, drawing you in a greater thought to employ. post comment

[10 May 2003|05:11pm] I fear I've lost your interest. But, I could only pretend to be mysterious for so long.. the truth is i've never lived with my feet on the ground and i've always looked in your direction, quietly but frantically waving hoping to catch and hold onto your attention hoping you'd never strain to look away . post comment

BARE YOUR TEETH [06 May 2003|12:45pm] jump girl, jump don't wax romantic with poetry of aeroplanes counting stolen miles in the night that's just the incessant chatter of stale thoughts deprived of first hand endorphins old as folded notes in the drawer jump girl, jump onto the doorstep unexpected leave your shy smile at home rolling joints and peeling oranges let the juice run down your face and laugh post comment

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